atok Shimi =)

waaaaa... :'( atokku putra norsaleh dah mcm xnk layan aku sekarang.. dia busy, aq tag dy dlm post pon x balas.. memang semua owg nk ignore aq ke?? masing2 dh busy sekarang buat hal sendiri.. sedihnya.. nie raya, mestilah kena sedih.. kena ingat owg2 tersyg yg dah lupakan aq.. aq akan ingat setiap org yg aq pernah kenal dalam hidup aq.. especially owg2 yg aq syg, lagi la aq ingat.. susah nk lupa.. =) hmm.. impian aq : bila aq dh pergi, aku akan diingati smpai bila2 oleh semua owg yg aq syg.. wah! mcm2 aq pnye impian.. tapi tula.. kita cme merancang, tuhan yg menentukan.. haha, life must go on no matter what.. n always smile to cheer up ur day.. apa agaknya yg 'dia' tengah buat kat sana

Lots Of Love,
Myself

=/ boring dengan diri sendiri

same feeling again! hate it, really hate it! go away from me, i just wanted to be happy with people whom love n care about me, i dont want to think about other! i dont want to be in mood of depression, i dont want to feel lonely, feel alone n emptiness, that's all.. now myy heart suddenly change again,, Ya'Allah, please bring someone who can i love him forever, someone that will make me faithful, who can respect me as a woman bcoz i'm not his muhrim n taking good care of me, can accept me as what i'm without changing me..that will never hurt me n will be with me till my last breath, a very loyal lover n make me happy bcoz live as a muslim.. who can be my adam, guide me trough the rite path of life.. who's that person?? i'm tired of having a relationship.. i hope this is the last.. i'll give up after that..

Lots Of Love,
Myself

a weird dream about them!

                seriously i've no idea of what i've being dreamed! . i dont think about both of them at all.. they came out n just  make me keep thinking abt that.. what is the means?? what Allah want me to see or this is just 'permainan tidur' ? i had a dream last 2 night. i were dreaming about AI n awak, Mo. on the first dream, Mo came n i was with him.. we're so close n happily together.. it's like we are in love.. but suddenly he said to me, 'saya memang sukakan awak, tapi maaf saya x boleh pilih awak' . in that dream, i felt somethin weird about Mo. his face like have a NUR while look at me. he was wearing jubah putih! it's so nice.
               on the second dreams of course i was with AI.. AI came at the place of this one sister whom i helped her to berniaga. i was shocked when i saw him. i was bermonolog with myself n said 'oh my god, this is the first time i got to see n meet AI. i didn't know why i was saying like that even though i've dreamed about AI more that 5times! that sis said to him like this : 'now i've brought u to meet her, i want u to say that 'things' to her!' he was silent for a while n suddenly mi litt sis came n he ask her with her serious face. 'what do you think about ur sister?'

Lots Of Love,
Myself

daily life

wow.. its almost a week i didn't updated my blogs n i feel it likes year! =) hmm.. nothing much changes change in my daily life.. just a normal things like fasting,study,school,friends, family, tuition n love.. haha?? love?? sorry, i'm single..hmm, my life kinda bored rite?? i'm proud of its, nothing to shame.. i've my friends who always besides me, thanks guys..this weekend probably i'll spend my time with my family! so happy.. long time didn't hang out 2gether.. we'll break fast outside.. all of u, hope so! hmm.. ayah, mama, abang, me,mazni n yusri.. =) i'm gonna miss that time.. hmm.. how abt u AI?? hope u just fine.. haha, terlupa plak nk update yg satu nie.. this is my fish! i gave them name oska, alba n elma haha.. but here u just can see oska, the gold one coz alba n elma were hiding! =)

Lots Of Love,
Myself

i'm alone

Thanks , my lovely friend ..

Lots Of Love,
Myself

dear AI III

wow, unbelievable! today is the first time AI commented  in my post since i know him.. good.. it's mean i'm one of his friends now.. i want to be acceptable by him.. =) hmm.. is there have a chance for me to be with him one day?? but if i be with him, we'll never be like friends bfore if something unwanted happen.. =/  worry..worry..

Lots Of Love,
Myself

awak!! =)

ohmy.. today dia says hai kat aq.. mcm x percaya je!! terserempak dengan die masa nk panggil Lily, mula2 macam gabra je tdi.. but kalau nk patah balik, nmpak sgt mcm aq lari.. so aq just lalu n senyum kat die.. suddenly die says hai.. aqpon hai lah.. tapi x pandang muka coz malu gila kat die.. awak, nnti sy mimpi pulak pasal awak mcm dulu.. just becoz sy terjerit depan awak, smpai terbawak2 dalam mimpi.. then masa awak tnya sy kelas mana.. pon sy mimpi jugak.. senang betul sy nk mimpi awak kan?? =) hmm.. still mcm x percaya.. betul ke x mimpi nie?? =)

Lots Of Love,
Myself

going down! =D

i'd definitely says that my results for this monthly's test is going down! especially for physics. i feel sad so badly.. why ah this happen to me?? next time, dont ever mixed personal probs wif study.. it will mess u up! n see what had happened to u?? hmm.. AI, dont be sad.. =) i'll always be here for u, eventhough u never realize my appearance.. i'm here as ur friends.. always will.. btw, couple is best but single is more fun! =)

so, what??

sometimes i got jelez of my friends.. i was asking myself, is there have a chance for me to bright my days wif my friends around me?? hmm.. i feel like i changed alot.. i'm not friendly anymore in my claz n only talking wif myfriend next to me.. what happened to u, fiqa? now i turn to a really lazy habits.. =( so sad! hmm.. maybe this is the time for evryone to feel sad?? coz few of my friends like me but in their own probs..  itulah.. jangan lupakan yang Esa.. hmm.. now i'm not interested to any relationship.. =p i dont have any passion..n now i dont feel anything when look towards iriss picture.. that's good starting of u.. see, i dont have any passion in my heart, totally zero.. n i like it!

Lots Of Love,
Myslf