life..

i've been rejected by him n i'm proud of that.. its kinda weird rite but i felt proud becoz he's the first man that i asked to be mine, bfore this i just gave them a hint, :p .. at last i brave my heart to ask.. he is such a good man, i admit it.. =) hmm, life.. not all our plans turned to what we dreams n hope.. Allah yg tentukan semuanye.. now i'm 16 years old.. just 4years more for me to be in 20-an.. =) the real life will come during that moments, studies, love, family, friends, works n etc.. hope i can be a really matured , lovely , n understanding ladies to all people around me.

“ One day, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else. ”

Lots Of Love,
Myself

;p hahahaha..

qwertyuiop..qwertyuiop...qwertyuiop...qwertyuiop.. ape aq merepek nie?? qwertyuiop..qwertyuiop.. qwertyuiop.. haha, saja gedik2 tulis.. hari nie wat experiment dalam kelas chemistry, pasal lead(II)bromide.. semua bila part experiment je mesti excited gila kan?? masa tengah buat experiment tadi, aq x prasan pon tudung aq  terkena benda tu so terbakar sikit coz terkena api tu,, aduh,nasib baik xnampak sgt.. next time kena lebih berhati2 nie, tapi tetap syok,. tadi masa kelas physics plak, ad 9org je dalam kelas, bagus kan kelas kita org?? semua bersemangat nak wat preparation untuk sukan tahunan sabtu nie.. =) hmm.. talk about him, aq tengok dia dh mula langkah die.. alhamdulillah, semoga dialah untuk awak. jangan lambat2 tau nanti terlepas plak.. yang penting, dont ever give up, AI .. =) 7/7 mama n iriss balik, raya nk datang umah..

Lots Of Love,
Myself

busy life

every weekend mama outstation, last two week g seberang jaya, last week g ipoh, then this weekend pula insya'allah pergi JB.. kalau pergi Jb, nk pergi taman perling la, jmpe nanie.. rindu kat dia lah.. mntak2 la this weekend dia boleh outing, boleh la kitaorg g angsana .. hang out dgn member hostel dia.. dgr cerita diorang pon gila2, mesti gempak kan?? hehehe..  selalu berborak OTP je, so now meet diorang.. this week skola mmg busy gila.. dengan raptai perbarisan lagi. penyerahan pingat la, cikgu pon busy skali.. so ofcoz la bnyak gila relief, students dalam kelas plak tggal 19org je dari 35.. bnyak gila kan yg xde dalam kelas?? nasib baik aq x terlibat dgn semua tu, so boleh la concentrate dalam kelas.. 1/8 dah puasa kan?? pada date tu jugak la smkCPR mula ujian yg ke-2.. fuhh, dh nak habis form4 dh.. sekejap je masa berlalu, aq still ingat hari pertama aq jadi murid form1, now dh nak form5!! i've to face spm.. just around the corner.. 'keep moving forward' all my dear buddies! study smart n always make ur family proud of u.. for my dear nanie, eventhough u're far away from me, u're still here in my heart, insya'allah.. =) biar pengalaman mematangkan kita.. jangan takut dgn cabaran tau? rindu kau babe!

Lots Of Love,
Myself

for the only AI,

Dear Awak

awak2.. hari ni adlah hari keempat sy mimpikan awak.. kenape erk?? setiap hari sy jmpe awk dlm mimpi sy, setiap hari, ad je aktvti yg kte wat.. 1st dream, awk dtg skola sy pakai kemeja hitam berkolar putih, n awk tman sy maen explorace, hari ke-2,sy x brape ingat ape yg kte wat, hari ke-3 sy text dgn awak. n today, kte chat2 kt dlm fb. saya x mntak pon awak, tpi kenape awk ttap dtg?? apa maksud disebalik mimpi nie?? mungkin nie cme mainan tdo je kan? sy cuba hindari awak tapi kenape awk lagi dekat dgn sy? dulu sy pernah jgak mimpikan awak 2x .. so total dlm 6x sy bermimpikan awak.. awak ad mimpi sy x?? hmm, xtau lah awak.. sakitkan bila memendam perasaan? tpi dalam islam, itulah yg terbaik, sya taupon coz sy selalu baca iluvislam.com , bnyak info n cerita yg menarik kt c2, sesekali awak tengok la ye?? awk ada bnyak kawan pompuan yg dtg dri family background yg baik2.. sy plak just an ordinary family.. jauh berbeza awak.. layak ke kalau saya nk jadi pendamping awak?? tpi ntahlah Allah itu maha kuasa kan?? mcm yg kte pernah dgr, kun faya kun. jadi maka jadilah.. nothing is impossible so kalau betul awak untuk saya, xde apa yg sy perlu risau.. but kalau awak mmg bkan untuk sy, kita berkawan jela.. sy redha, coz saya yakin bahawa Allah pasti ad perancangan yg lebih baik  untuk sy, insya'Allah lagipon perjalanan saya masih jauh kan?? banyak lagi yang perlu saya kejar.

Lots Of Love,
Myself

dreaming of u, awak!

now when i dont care about him anymore, he came out in my dreams.. including today, 3x berturut-turut dia dtg dlm mimpi aq.. what's this means?? then mase breakfast kat cafe tdi, aq jmpe owg mcm dia.. rmbut panjang berikat mcm dia, segala2nye menyerupai dia.. buat aq teringat balik dia n mimpi2 aq about him.. i stalk him profile again n again.. am i missing him?? hmm, dont know.. i dont want to think about its.. if mmg dia is my 'adam' yg dah tertulis di mahfuz sana tu, aq terima n insya'allah akan percayakan dia.

Lots Of Love,
Myself

hahaha.. =)

orang selalu cakap, bila dia ada,kehadirannya x dihargai.. n bila dia xde, barulah kita mencari.. betulkan?? dulu aq macam x kesah je, but now barulah tercari2.. so xpelah.. i'm stop finding.. =)

Lots Of Love,
Myself

NurJanahAllia-You

you were there to light my day

you were there to guide me through

from my days down and on

i'll never stop thinking of you.

how can i forget all that

when you're the one who make me smile

you'll always be a part of me

how i wish you were still mine.

never will forget the day

how we've met and came this far

we all know we got this feeling

but somehow it has to end up here.

i know it's me who say good bye

and that the hardest thing to do

cause you mean so much to me

and guide the truth from me to you.

for all the things i've done and said

for all the hurt i've caused of you

i hope you will forgive me baby

cause that wasn't what i meant to do.

finally! =)

hari ni memang hari yang panas n memenatkan. dahlah kena stayback kt skola sampai pukul 4ptg coz ad kokorikulum. then dengan air aku dah habis! waaaa... kesiannya..masa dah nak sampai rumah tadi, tiba2 hidung plak berdarah! aduh, nampak sangat dalam badan aku nie panas.. serius penat.. ngan buku berlambak gila, sampai 3beg aq bwa, =) hmm, finally apa yang aq nantikan berakhir.. exam mid-year kali ni aq dapat 4A5B2C . agak drop jugaklah result aq kali nie.. ujian dulu aq dapat 8A2B1E. haha, kedudukan aq dalam kelaspon drop jugak.. aq exchanged position with shaktisha.. exam 1st aq no.1 , dia no.2 .. this 2nd exams aq no. 2, dia no. 1 .. haha, xpelah awak.. kita bersaing secara sihat betul tak?? kena lebih berusaha untuk saing dia semula.. =) loves all of u, my friends.. mmmuuuaahh2x!!

not in mood

hmm.. xtau la kenapa hari ni aq x rasa apa2.. lgsg xde mood, masa tengok tv tdipon aq wat xtau je.. ntah la.. it's totally zero. i feels the emptiness in mine, dont know why.. masa dapat text dari diapun aku just pandang n wat xtau je, nanti2 jela balas. maybe aq fed up kot?? tapi sebab apa?? ;/ pelik2.. tak pon coz aku penat? maybe la.. hmm, nak tau tak, dulu2kan masa aq tengah depressed, aq boleh tido balik even aq dah tdo lama2.. pelikkan?? for example, kalau aq dah tdo for 10 hours, aq boleh tdo balik 2jam selepas tu, then tido..tido.. then tido lagi.. mata nie bila baring je memang akan tertutup.. hehe.. agaknya diri aq nie memahami kot?? =)

Lots Of Love,
Myself

KenanganTerindah-samsons

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun
Aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

Darimu...
Kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku...
Kau lah cinta sejati

Ooh...

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Ooh...

-one of my fav songs since i was young! and can makes me cry.. =)

Lots Of Love,
Myself

talk about depression

arini hujan jap kat KL.. nak x nak, aku terpaksa jugak redah hujan ngan lily masa balik sekolah tadi coz takut tertinggal bas.. apa lagi, mandi hujan la aq jawapnye.. sejuk!! hehe, habis basah lencun baju skolah aku.. best jugak la, coz dah lama x mandi hujan kan?? huhu, best!! hmm, arini kat skolah aq belajar pasal depression dalam subject english.. DR. Susan cakap, depressed is a normal things in life. aq sendiri pon pernah rasa.. but jangan lah lama2, we have to know how to wake up..Dr. Susan cakap lagi, orang cina mempercayai yin n yang(betul ke aq eja nie?? sorry erk kalu salah) hidup nie akan ada pasang n surutnya.. once kita berada kat atas, kita akan turun ke bawah.. macam kita pernah dengar, hidup ini umpama roda, lagipon kalau kita berada dalam kesedihan, Allah ad dekat dngan kita, insyaAllah.. =) antara sebab2 depression is about exam,family, n puppy love.. any else?? i dont know. i just write what they said in book. setiap masalah pasti ad jalan keluarnya, insyaAllah jka ad kesungguhan pasti akan berjaya.. hmm, arini g skola dalam keadaan mata yang kuyu.. why?? coz aq tdo 1jam je, then trus bgun pkul 5,30 mandi n pergi skola.. pengajarannye disini, next time jangan tdo lambat ok?? hehehe.. that's all for today. =)

Lots Of Love,
Myself

LuahanHati-Apit

pertama kali ku bertemu dengan mu..

sayunya hatiku merinduimu

walaupun belum kita bersua muka

namun aku tetap jatuh cinta

pertama kali ku bertemu denganmu

hatiku terpaut melihat senyumanmu

aku engharap engkau menerimaku

kerna aku bersedia menyintaimu

akan ku renang lautan yg berapi

membuktikan kehebatannya cinta ini

tetapi jikalau kau meninggalkan ku

terhiris hati ini.terguris jiwa ini.

menangis tak berlagu..ohhhh...

biarpun ombak yg mrubah pantai

kasih ku tak kan hancur berderai

biarpun hari berganti hari

dirimu tetap ku nanti ohhhh...

sayangku pimpinkan tangan ku

menuju mahligai bahgia..

kita bersama nikmati kisah cinta

hidup bagaikan di syurga

ohhhh..kasih...

 

Lots Of Love,

Myself

a romance guy!

kata adik aku, perut kenyang hatipon senang! hmm, btul ke?? haha, betul la tu.. aq jadi gila bila perut kenyang.. hmm.. wanna talk about sad story again?? ofcoz.. hehe, just kidding.. let's talk about other things. hmm, pernah tak korung jumpa lelaki yang terlampau memuja perempuan yang dia sayang sampai tak tengok perempuan lain dah.? dia melayan perempuan tu setiap hari tanpa jemu. setiap hari dia bercakap pasal pompuan tu je dalam blogs even though prempuan tu sukakan lelaki lain.. he keep faithful. korung try baca cerita nie  :
http://www.penulisan2u.my/2011/06/cerpen-365-hari-mencari-cinta/
n baca blogs hero dalam cerita nie.
akupon xtaulah whether it's a true story or not tapi penulis cakap tu cerita betul so betul lah kot.. cerita tu boleh tahan la.. xde la sweet sangat tapi aq tetap suka.. kalau still ad lelaki yang sweet n setia macam dia, perempuan tu memang bertuah, aq berharap n berdoa semoga masih ada lelaki macam tu pada zaman ini n akan dipertemukan dengan perempuan yang baik. insyaAllah! ;) rasa nak mengarang lagi, tapi xtau nak cerita pasal apa.. hmm.. aq mula mengarang blog nie semenjak aq suka berpuitis n tulis cerita sedih aq, so ofcoz la korung nampak blog nie dipenuhi ngan cerita2 sedih.. haha, so, oleh kerana terasa nak mengarang n show to general, kawan aq ciptakan  blog ini untuk aq memandangkan aq nie buta IT sikit.. huhuhu,,

p/s : eventhough my iriss is back, dia bukan lagi macam iriss yang aku kenal dulu. :(

Lots Of Love,
Myself

like you!

sometimes when i heard or read other love's stories, it makes me realize that actly i can have my own love. will we be together one day? are u meant to be for me? everyday i pushes my heart to stay calm when thinking about u. am i your missing rib? i admit it, i'm not perfect enough for u. may u be my special one? i wakes all night and think about you. what ashamed, asking a guy to love me? stop dreaming fiqa.. when we believe to Allah, nothing is possible rite?

Lots Of Love,
Myself

na, na, na..

i'd like to be like him..i'll make him as my idol that always challenged himself to be a better n quality human. he said he want a differences. want to try harder things. he is astonishing. always learn every single day. even though he comes from rich n good family's background, he never proud of its n he's like want to hide it from others. maybe he knows,that a wealth will not bring a happiness in life, just adversity, pretended, and betrayed each other.. he wants to find a true friends that could accept him just the way he are.. haha.. stop talking nonsense.. here i've written some words like what he do.. just a starting. not as power as him.. =)

they comes again and it makes little scar deep in my heart bleeding. too hurtful. was asking when will this infliction ends. is it tomorrow? next week? next month? or next year? their faces stuck in my head till now. maybe i cant forget them. coz i love them till my last breath.

haha, not good enough? it's ok.. just a beginning.. it's naturally come from my own and not a copypaste from other page.. huhu.. i'm a romance! =P

Lots Of Love,
Myself

a sweet guys that i admire =)

(I just wanted my heart to fall for person called a girl . That is you . But who is 'you' ? Is it her ? her ? or her ? . Am I deserved 'you' ? Am I the right guy ? Am I good enough for 'you' ? And can I be your 'one and only' forever ? - A little conscience from a baby boy , anxiously waiting and hoping a 'candle' light his heart brighter . )  -sweetkan ayat die?? boleh cair! nak tau lagi X ayat2 die?

(Just know it's getting easier to breathe. Let's take our time . Cause I just know , that rushing a romance is a guaranteed killer . That will leave us dead in our wake .) -ntahlah, die memang romantik kan??

(So now this is over and the world falls upon me . I never expected to be here alone . The shadows are forming as we burst into flames . Why does this end this way) -die memang pandai berpuitis

(It's getting kind of hard to take it slow . When I am up all night thinking about you . It doesn't even matter how long it takes . I'd be okay because we'd be together some day . Waiting and hoping for the next time . We're together and staying up all night . Waiting and hoping for the next time . I get to stare into your eyes !) -siapa agaknya hawa nya?? siapa pelengkap tulang rusuk die?

(Dare I ask you this ? Where do you stand as a come and go acquaintance ? I've been pondering around this bond for sometime now. Where have you been hiding in? Is it in the tall forest ? Won't she listen to the voices calling her name ? Will she attempt ? .) -die mengharapkan that girl untuk mencuba, tpi mencuba apa?? hmm, siapa girl 2? aku ke? haha, perasan!

(Abondon me ! I was never one to hold out well under pressure . I was lost . I hope 'you' can find me , I've got to find myself before I can move on this time .) -who is 'you' yang dia maksudkan??

aku tetap miera n fee yang die kenal.. cume berlainan nama.. memang best jadi kawan die.. a friendly n open minded guy.. =)

Lots Of Love,

 

miss u, mama

sometimes, bila kita bermimpikan seseorang tu, bermakna jauh didalam hati ini, kita merindui orang itu kan.? mungkin betul aku terlampau rindukan mama and iriss.. aku rindukan mereka.. aku menangis sorang2 tadi bila fikirkan diorang.. serius, aq rindukan dorang.. ya'allah, tak tertanggung rasanya rindu ni.. aku nak sangat jumpa dengan diorang.. aku ingin sekali peluk dorang sepuas2 nya.. ntahlah, siapalah aku niekan?? cuma orang luar je dalam keluarga mama n iriss.. aku mimpi mama n iriss datang rumah.. aq peluk mama n iriss sambil menangis.. aku cakap yang aku terlampau rindukan diorang.. macam ni lah jadi nya bila dah mula sayangkan seseorang tu..hehe, sambil tengah menaip niepon aq boleh lagi menangis, cengeng betul lah! =) hmm..x apalah.. aku yakin, one day nanti Allah akan bagi aku peluang juga untuk jumpa dorang , insya'allah ..

Lots Of Love,
Myself

walauweh!

bosan..bosan..bosan..!! hari yang sungguh bosan .. ntah la.. tade mood langsung.. nk buat ape erk?? tgok tv? xde crita best. online? boring, asyik benda yang sama je. baca komik? dah berulang kali aq bce. melepak? dah lame aq tggalkan bnda 2 sume.. hmm, ntah la.. study? serius xde mood, mlm nnti jela . text owg? handpone xde kredit.. ah! teruknya aq nie .. dont even know what to do.. hahaha, senang crita, jom tdo.. lagi best kot! haha, pemalas!!

p/s: sejuk gila dalam snow walk kat i-city, sampai umah pkul 2.30pgi terus tdo.

Lots Of Love,
Myself

;) just smile n let it hides all ur sadness

waaaaa!!!!!!!! sedih gila.. hidup ini mmg sentiase x seperti yg kita harapkan kan?? itulah takdir.. kita cme merancang, tuhan yg tentu kan.. menangis + melalak gila2 tdi.. semua ini gara2 crita asmara.. zal n asmara x dpt bersama,, akhirnye die tau jgak yg zal still hdup! sedih2,, tpi diorg dh janji nk critakan kisah hdup dorg kt anak diorg bila dewasa kelak.. sweet gila! haha, mklum la, owg jiwang nie kan?? huhuhu.. nanie jahat, mase lepak tdi, tbe2 die ckp psal kenangan ktorg mse form2 dlu.. die pggil aq tembam! malu nye.. dahla acik dengar.. then mse call die td, die pergi bukak loudspeaker.. aq mse 2 tgh melalak gila2 + ckp bnda2 merapu smpai sepatah haram pon nanie x phm , hbis acik gelak.. malu aq nk jmpe mak nanie lg lepas nie.. ^_^ .. mama pesan kat aq, 2 la lain kali tgok crita korean n hindustan je, coz crita 2 sume x kan mengecewakan kte.. xde lah aq melalak lagi.. manja betul la ank cik azmi nie..

p/s: rindu kat korg.. masing2 dh bawak haluan sendri.. :(

Lots Of Love,
Myself